Today has been really different. I have had that strong desire to not do anything but sleep, yet I resisted the urge. I have been so unfocused all day. I desire to fight to being active again. I guess the medicine is working though. My mind did not succumb to the normal despair I feel. I have remained free of the most deeply held parts of my feelings and resisted the darkness. Still, it was a bad day. One where I had no drive to write or do what I have been trying to push myself to do so I am not happy. It is an improvement I guess. The difficult part will be tomorrow and another day. I have to face that I am screwed up because of the depression. It has weakened me in ways that have to be addressed.
Lady Alexia
No comments:
Post a Comment