Not feeling well

I wanted to let you all know why I have been silent. I am not feeling really well right now. I know part is the passing of kidney stones. I feel them and the thirst I get is what has always happened when I have them. The other is the sinus infection that is trying to take hold. I am also trying to wait things out to make the new Doc appointment from where they moved it a week forward. I get really hot as well. I am burning up right now. It has sapped me of much of my energy. I haven't even felt like rubbing my clitty since the other day in the shower, but that is another story.

Just know I am not gone, but I am running at about 35% right now. Have some temp work next week as well. I will get back soon. I hope you all are doing well.

Love and Kisses,
Alexia

Holiday Season

OK, so this is a busy time of the year for me. I love Christmas and so far I have fought off the depressive thoughts. I have my stealth panty buying in full gear and bought the most comfortable fit yet for myself. The tip is to buy panties when buying clothes for needy people. You are doing good and slipping something naughty in for your nice self. *giggle*

I will have my moments where the loneliness will get to me. I miss my Mom a lot this time of year. She was such a good Mom and did so much for others. I have to be careful or I will buy too much for the kids I work with or give more than I can to charities. I have been buying a guilty pleasure. CVS has the cutest little reindeer stuffed toys. So far I have bought Vixen, Dancer, and Comet. I don't need them, but they are soooooo cute. I do have one more Haven Christmas box to mail and I still need to do my cards.

I might be silent for the rest of the week still. I have many little things to do. My Santa's Elf hat is own. So don't fret. Also, my Sweet Boy, Jillisa, and any other Havennittes that read this, I hope to be more active soon.

Kisses,
Alexia Rose

Been Kinda busy....and Stones are back

I am kinda busy right now and may be scattered on updates. Bear with me. Who knows I could get on a streak and have many posts real soon. The pesky kidney stones are back. I feel them traveling some during the day. Not so painful yet, but might get there.

Something really cool happened the other day. I had been helping the parent a gotten really dirty. So I showered and then when getting dressed put on one of my cute flowery pair of pink panties. What is cool is that I felt so comfortable and forgot I was wearing panties. My silly boy clit flattened inside me and even those pesky things that hang down were pressed tight. It was like a sudden realization hours later that I realized just how much I felt like a woman down there. It is silly and small I know. But I just felt so good all the rest of the day about it.

Hope you all are doing well.
Love and Kisses,
Alexia Rose

Doing Better

I am doing better darlings. Medicine is calming my irritability down and I am now just fighting the sinus rollercoaster of weather. I am about to embark on a cold rainy day to a Christmas thing. I hope it snows later. I love snow.

OH, I want to thank my Sweet Boy, He really helped me scratch many itches yesterday. I loved every minute of it hun. Moo, Moo, MOOOOO!

Alexia

I had hoped.....

I had hoped that maybe my anxiety and depression was brought on in the terrible state from the environment I was in at the time and then left. Since accepting I could no longer do it on my own and getting some help from my doctor, I have been on Lexapro. I had helped, I knew it at the time. When I felt so out of control, I would get tired and sleepy and eventually I was feeling better. I felt like reading for fun. I was doing better. The problem is the cost of the medicine. I was able to get samples from doctors and I guess I was able to have around 4 months at no cost.

Tonight the feelings of irritability and dark anger went totally out of control. Granted, the parent pushed and has pushed the entire time I have been without the medicine. Still, I was shaky hours after. I have taken one of the quick release pills I was given. I feel the sleepiness. I am calmer. I just am glad I can pay for the refill tomorrow, well today now I guess.

I hate feeling this way. I hate being depressed.

Alexia