Swallowed by Darkness

Last Monday I experienced a heavy dose of Depression with very dark thoughts.  It was so bad that I scared myself.  I did something I have never done when like this and it scared me very much.  I had written a paragraph of a crazy rambling post and suddenly stopped and wrote what I did instead.  I will try and write more later this week.  Right now I am still really fluctuating in depression, but I am maintaining.

Thank you to all who reached out....I am sorry I scared any of you.

Alexia Rose

When you don't Love Yourself

Those that believe in a higher power, please pray for me.

I Dislike V-Day.

I really do not like Valentine's Day.  It is not the fact that it is a made up Holiday to make money between Christmas and Easter, no, I do not like it because I am always alone on V-Day.  It is a day that is a constant reminder of how lonely I am and just causes so much depression in my mind as I go on with life.  I see all the mush romantic stuff and yearn for that myself.  Here I am 40 and trapped as the wrong gender and I can only dream about Love.  It hurts deeply.

If you have someone special in your life, PLEASE, do not take them for granted.  Tell them you love them.  Show them what they mean to you.  Some of us would love to have that in our lives.

Alexia Rose