Heavy Work Load

I am very busy at work with multiple projects. Add the continued cough and cold that has medicine that has torn my tummy to itty bitty pieces and I am stretched very thin. I will be ghost-like for a week or so. I have to prioritize. No matter how much I would love to be enveloped in the goodness of being Alexia I have to live the reality that the male form has to walk the ground and earn cash. I also am on the side project of my geeky obsession so as to have a nice vacation time in June.

So I am ghostly for a time. I hope you all will be patient with me.

Alexia

HAPPY BIRTHDAY SWEET BOY!

Yesterday was my Sweet Boy's Birthday. I made this for him and hope he had a great day. I don't get to spend much time chatting with Him right now. I really hope you all like this, but if not, it isn't really for the masses anyway. It is for my Sweet Boy.

Alexia

I Tranced out Sunday Night

Before I get into the marathon Hypnosis I went through Sunday Night I want to share some cool images from my silly head. I have had flashes of late in my mind of myself having a cute and sexy butt. This happens especially when I slip on my oh so comfy Hanes Boy Shorts. They affect me. The soft fabric and the curve of them on my ass signal a nice feeling of having that cool look. I even felt so empowered walking to the local Bank door this week.

I decided I had not allowed myself to be under hypnosis recently. I felt sick still (I am taking an antibiotic now for my cough), so I put all my files on my computer into a folder and hooked the Windows Media Player in and slept in my recliner. I drifted in and out as my mind was turned to putty.

Hypnosis is so nice. I was sort of awake for one file. Probably because the one before had a very clear awakening end. This one was of a strap-on being pushed in my vagina. *giggles* I felt it. I really was overdome with being filled by a big plastic cock. That was the best part. I know I slip my fingers into my lips. Yes, I had no problem with being totally under the feeling that my body was female. I was so wet. *sigh*

One might think that this would have made me feel tired the next day, but I was more rested. I think the ones with very good relaxation prompts are to thank for this occurrence. I have felt more like a girl this week. I still can't see myself in the mirror. I just have a better mental image. Showering is the best. I feel like I feel my girl body. I close my eyes and enjoy washing.

I also have still been so horny afterward. Hypnosis is a fetish for me I know. One file I used double that night was one that would cause me to obey IM's and emails with my triggers. *sigh* I wish my sweet boy would email his Pet some commands. Life is just too interrupting though.

Love,
Alexia

SURROGATE HUSBAND

I had owed JPL another caption, so here was the second new one I got done. One name off the list I have with so many girls from the Haven I owe captions to in return. One day I will get these caught up. Hopefully before Mistress Dementia knocks me from the top list in the Trading Gallery.

Alexia

THE PRICE

I made a new caption. Returned a cap trade to JPL at Rachel's Haven. Enjoy!

Alexia

Thought I would ramble some

Let me start off by saying that I am soooo horny right now it is not even funny. I have tried to satisfy my self but it only made me extremely wet, so I might wander a bunch in this post. One thing that has been on my mind as I lay down at night is what I wish I looked like down where the deformity is between my legs. I see the way I wish I looked. I would be clean shaven of course, I am beginning to get a bit obsessive about trying to rid myself of body hair (yucky stuff). I would have pussy lips that puffed out and were in that clam-like squiggle. It is a nice image to drift off to sleep with in the foremost of my thoughts.

I have been lovesick of late. The woman that I love still, even though we can't be has just been on my mind. When I look at her picture I get all twitterpated as the owl in Bambi would say. I just have these deep feelings of love. I would like to be the girl that she deserves, but by that cruel twist of fate I am just a sad and lonely t-girl that she cares about. That is important though, she does care for me, I know this with all my heart. *sigh*

Then there is my friend Jillisa. We are so similar in loneliness. I see where I might be if certain people I came across along the way had not been there. She is someone I care about and feel so bad not being available to just cuddle in YIM cyberworld. She is so funny and just makes me feel connected to someone I know understands what it feels like to just not be the person society would push upon you.

My Sweet Boy has been in my daydreams so much. I wish he could hold me. I just imagined him wrapping those strong arms around me and I know I am safe. I would gladly be his pet. I imagine being the perfect little female puppy girl for him. I would have a big basket at the foot of his bed. He would use me to relieve the stress of the day. The feel of him pushing his cock into me before he leaves for work would just be a wonderful way to start the day. When he gets married I would be subservient to my mistress too. eventually I would be the helper of looking after the kids as my owners worked and played. It would be a happy life.

I am in a good place with the job, but it limits my being able to feel like myself some. I have to play the part of the boy alot. I have found the best panties and wear them alot now, so I can feel a bit like me as I go through the day. I wish there was a way to go back and tweak that one chromosome to be a girl for real when I was born and be able to have friends and family intact. I wonder if I would have had a date to the prom?

As I drive to meet with my boss, I have been able to see different prom dresses in a store window, Two were so awesome. One was green and would be so sexy. The stunning one was a deep navy blue. I would get so warm thinking of being able to be in them. *sigh* I don't have the cross dressing gene in my as much as most t-girls I guess, but every now and then I do fantasize. Reality is a cruel thing. So I keep my images in my head. I know how absolutely silly I would look trying to place this deformed body into such beautiful clothes. I will stick to panties.

OK, better head off to bed. I miss those of you I use to be able to chat with a great deal. I am doing better though, know that. It is life that is intruding and not depression or the bad thoughts that had my crippled.

*kisses*
Alexia

"SPRINKLER"

I am coughing less, but still feeling weak. I hope I remember correctly that this is a caption I received from Courtney very early in her coming to the Haven. If I am wrong, then please someone comment and I will rectify the mistake. I love the way she changed me here. I feel like I resemble Eliza Dushku in the picture. I have pics that are wanting caps, but my work is busy right now. Enjoy this cap though. There really are so many great captioners at the Haven.

Alexia

"INVOCATION"

I am sick and coughing so bad right now. I have another cap series that was given to me at Rachel's Haven. Angie did this different type story of demonic magic and gender sacrifice. It is very intriguing. I hope you enjoy. *cough cough*

Alexia

"AT THE FENCE"

Here is another cap that was given to me at Rachel's Haven. I think Angie made this one for me. I will double check and make sure. I have some ideas. Now is the busy time in my job. I do need to get myself in gear and clear the massive amounts of pics I have on my hard drive. Enjoy these caps from my sisters at the Haven for now.

Alexia