Reality Bullets

After suggesting a "Girls with Guns" theme for the caption contest at Rachel's Haven I came up with this little number for fun.  What do ya think?

Alexia

Woke up imagining.......

I was standing on a seaside balcony in my silk robe and nothing else.  I feel his strong arms wrap around me and I also feel his shaft push my robe between my legs.  He opens the robe and takes my breast in his hands and caresses them as I lean my head back.  Soon he has dropped my robe to the deck and we are standing naked as the first rays of a new morning dance over us.  I can feel the head of his cock slip between my folds and soon he is making love to me slowly.

I moan loudly as he lifts my bottom with each thrust.  I am reaching back and holding his ass as he cradles my breast.  The cool morning air has me feeling a combination of coolness and then warmth as I flush with his desire for me.

I am soon filled with his seed, so full his cum is dripping down my leg.  I am dizzy with love and after a few more thrust by him I climax and squirt around his shaft.

And then I woke up fully......wet.....and wanting more.

BDS

Yesterday I had a confrontation with the parental unit.  It was bad.  I reigned in my anger, pushing it down, but the experience left me rattled.  I spent two hours trying not to take the quick acting anxiety medicine.  I eventually took it and became a zombie.  It was better than shaking and having my body feel like I was about to explode I guess.  So many dark thoughts were inside me.  It was bad.  The parental unit had and still has no clue what I went through.

Later I took three generic Tylenol PM and zombiefied myself even more.  I was and still am out of it.  I want to cry now.  I feel so drained of life.  It hurts trying to hold in all these feelings.  It always feels like I am about to explode.  I am still not feeling well.  I only wanted to be with My Star.  I wanted ti crawl in her arms and have her tell me to stop worrying and make me laugh.

Alexia 

I Would Love to be able to Be a "Chick with a Dick"

If I could pass as a woman right now I would go long distances away and spend time being myself.  I am OK with never having the surgery if I could become more of who I am.  I do want to maybe try hormone pellets in the future.  I think being a pretty Transsexual like Bailey Jay or Sarina Valentina would be glorious.

I would have a great deal of work to do.  I am wondering now just how much i can do without hormones.  I have mentioned that I believe I am one of the hormonally messed up during development gals.  I have a smaller thing than most of the gals that are on hormones and have small cocks.  For me though, the idea that I could walk through a mall and shop without fear for pretty things and get treated like I should be is just a sweet fantasy.

Another would be to see if I would be approached as a woman or turn heads because I caught some man's fancy.  Would I ever find someone.  What about a cute woman?  That would be the best.  I know I am open to either because I want to be loved and that is not about gender anymore.  I just wish I could be me and there be no repercussions.  I know though that we are labeled as freaks, whether we are in hiding as I am or out there struggling and living like so many others are.  There is a nice young gal from the Haven that I admire and root for everyday.  She transitioned when young.  She has cheered and done things I would love to have tried.  She found her soulmate and they are living life and I hope everyday that blessings and joy cover them.  I would love that, so I am also a tiny bit jealous.

Still, I will try and stay on the brighter side of my thoughts and hope one day I will know the touch and embrace of my partner.

Alexia

Horny and Bothered

I wish so much that I could give a nice African American Man a mind blowing Blow Job.  I get so wet dreaming about this action.  Last night I watched a wonderful video where a gorgeous redheaded transsexual be taken by a handsome dark skinned lover.  When he crouched over her and basically fucked her mouth I creamed my panties.  I then basically seduced my Sweet Boy while he was on vacation.  I sucked him off over chat and it was so good.

I guess Jessica Coyote from the Haven would be proud of my becoming a cock whore.  She helped me way back when I was first curious about sucking cock.  Jennifer also helped me so much.  I need to improve cash flow and buy a dildo so bad.  I want to imagine sucking cock.  On the same video it was so hot to see them have sex.  I wished so bad it was me in her place.  I want to be a woman so bad sometimes.  I just dream about a strong man taking me.  If the world were as I wanted, I would be collared and at the feet of my Sweet Boy and ready to forever be his Pet.  *sigh*

Alexia Rose

Nothing to say......

I want to post.  I just have nothing to say or too much to write.  I have so many thoughts right now I am in a dizzy space.  I seem to be constantly horny and masturbate all the time.  One thing that I have noticed is that I can't really masturbate by stroking when the deformity gets erect.  It happened the other morning, that old ailment that the maleness I have deals with, you awake with morning wood.

I could not get aroused by the thought of wrapping my hand around it.  Only when it had softened enough to push it inside my body and rub it like a clit did I cum.  I am totally unable to get going any other way.  It makes me feel more like I am who I should be in a strange way.

Guess I did have something to say after all.

Alexia

Be Gone a week

I will be gone for a week at least Sweeties.  Life interrupts the life I wish I lived.  Hope all of you are doing well this summer and dreaming sweet sexy fantasies like me.

Alexia Rose