Busy Days

I will be really busy the next few days.  Be doing an important event and fighting sinuses.  I do hope you all have a very nice weekend.  I am humbled every time I look and see how many people read my Blog.  It is really mind blowing.  

I was also surprised over at Rachel's Haven as I was looking at the Awards section.  For those that do not know I had a week where it was Alexia's Haven, that was cool and nice, but the new award that had been added to my profile was something that almost had me crying.

The award is a Heart.  It said something about showing concern for others.  That just means so much to me.  I wish so many times that I was able to do the magic I fantasized about.  I would work to heal and transform so many of the wonderful people at Rachel's Haven.  The healing power would be especially nice as so many of us seem to be suffering nowadays.

See You Soon,
Alexia Rose 

When I close my eyes.........

......the world spins away and I am in my own world.  There are no clothes and everyone is in perfect health.  I walk out barefoot and go to the park.  I see two guys laying on the grass in an embrace as they kiss.  Their cocks are straight out and proud as each rubs along the other while their owners' hands caress their cut bodies.  I watch a group of people jog by.  Breast and cocks bounce as they exercise.  I feel my slit moisten as I watch people at peace in the world.  Everywhere couples and groups are involved in pleasure and affection.

I see a young man that looks sad.  He sits alone on a park bench.  I stroll over and lean down to kiss him a hello.  He looks at me and I know he is just lonely and I see that he is stroking a huge cock.  I kneel and pet it as I smile at him.  Soon I am kissing him with a simple softness that makes him gasp.  I gently lift his stiff member and suck his balls into my warm mouth.  I taste him and groan.

His hands begin to pet my hair like the good girl I am.  Shivers run down my back.  I take his cock in my mouth and just suck a bit before pulling back to cover just his crown.  I suck and run my tongue all over him as I run my small hands up and down his shaft.  pre-cum leaks into my mouth and I gasp.  He slides in my mouth as he stands.  Soon I feel his crown push to the back of my throat.  He is good to not choke me, just take it to the limit and then pull back.  I submit to his fucking my mouth as my hands drop to my sides.

My new friend takes my head in his hands to hold my now completely limp body steady.  I am becoming lost in pleasure.  I feel my nipples harden and my pussy is dripping as I enjoy my submission.  Soon I jolt as the taste of salty cum explodes in my mouth.  I awaken to grab hold of his ass and drink all of him.  I am so hungry for him and need to have nourishment.  Soon he is spent and he picks me up and carries me to a soft patch of grass.

We cuddle as his long flaccid cock lays against me.  I look and his eyes and just know that a world where we all can just enjoy each other is better than a world of hatred.  I know soon I will have to return to the reality of a place where I am ugly and alone.  But for now I close my eyes and snuggle close.

*kiss*  Love Alexia

Showing cocks in profile pics

 I see so many Blogger profiles on the Followers section that has cocks in them.  I see very few vaginas.  Why do you guys put your cock out there like that in that little picture.  Honestly, It doesn't make me want to suck your cock more.  These two images do.  I have fantasized many times while digging my two fingers inside and rubbing my boi clitty of crawling over the hot sand and devouring his cock.  I think that he is just sexy in that pose.  He seems powerful.  The other is more to my desire to be loved by a kind Master who I would pleasure in any way he would like.  Hairy little cocks in small boxes just get me wondering.


I just watched a video that had a beautiful transsexual in it.  She had small breast that gave her an athletic and slender look.  She had a nice cock hanging down as well.  Her lover was not a muscle bound guy, just a nice boy with a cute body and a nice cock that she sucked on like I wish I could have.  I get so jealous at times.


I dream  a great deal about sucking cock and licking pussy.  I guess the perfect life for me would be to have a nice couple be my Owners.  Have you ever thought about that, someone coming to you and making an offer?  Life with us and we will transform you into the sexy girl you should be and in return we ask that you be our sex toy and someone we can love.  See I need the love to be totally devoted.  Trust and love open me up to being totally submissive.


My Master probably thinks I have forgotten him.  I have not been able to be online.  I imagine his cock in its ebony glory a great deal.  I wish I could let go more and lore with him.  I want to have time some day in the future where he can use my hypnosis triggers and submission to make me his completely.  I trust him and my sweet boy.  I wish so much I was who I see in my head.  I would love to show them for real how much I care for them.  One has been what I needed in terms of dominating me and allowing me the freedom to be sexual to any degree.  The other is affectionate and makes me yearn to just melt away in his arms.


This so traveled away from wondering why there are so many cocks in profiles.  I hope I live long enough to be able to see us in a virtual world online.  Wonder how many cocks will be floating around then.  I hope they are at least as nice as what I picture my Master and Sweet Boy having.


Alexia

I am in a bit of a Mood

Just longing for something that can never be.....I do still Love you, My Star.

 

Me, Myself, and who am I?

Busting Loose Would Be Awesome To Do

Hey There Peeps,

I have been busy with my responsibilities and with my health management.  A plus on the health side is new med is suppose to cause weight loss, that would be great.  I am just twirling a bit of self wondering around in my head.  I am just thinking of a need to be good and post.  I also have some feelings to express and maybe it can help someone out there.  Before that I do want to express the appreciation for those that leave kind and loving remarks on this site.  I don't always say it, but I am always touch to the point of tears when I read that one of you reached out to offer me love.  It helps, it does.  Some days it makes me feel so selfish.  I wonder if I post seeking that attention.  I hope not.  I try and be as genuine as possible under the circumstances.  I wish I could hug you all.  Some days the comments help keep me on the better side of my depression.

Depression is not all about my desire to be a female.  Some are missing my Mom, some are loneliness, some of the feelings deal with my feeling stuck in life.  I know I will struggle with these feelings as long as I live.  It does help that people that see the me I am when I can be truer to myself comment.

I have come to the conclusion I am bisexual.  I have pondered something for a great deal of time.  I realize that I am looking for love, acceptance, and affection in a person.  The gender is irrelevant at this point I think.  The only factor that would slow up a relationship in any form is my work situation.  I know in my heart though that I would give myself to a female, male, or any wonderful mixture between the two.  I wish sometimes I could be the woman I wish for two male friends that share all our desires.  I also wish that I could be the girl that My Star deserves in her life.  There is my friend in the middle of the continent that even though they are my best girlfriend, I would love to love them so they know they are worthy to know love.

At this age of my life, I am realizing that we place too much in the way of being happy.  God made two of every animal.  God made Adam a partner because it was decided by the supreme one that Adam should not live alone.  I think we sometimes forget that fact.  Yes, male and female came about, there had to be so the species are able to continue as a living group that extends to the future.  But we are not meant to be alone.

My kinky and sexual nature is something I can see others dissecting.  Some say this is all a fetish.  I guess my living the life of my female self online can be a bit fetish, but really it is the following.  I want to be hypnotized.  I want to be submissive to a caring owner.  I would love to be a dog.  Yes, a full girl doggie and be loved and showing love that doggies give there owners.  I want sex.  I have none now except the self gratification I get.  I want to be connected like that with someone.  I want to be a stripper too.  That is the sexual fetish.

I am a girl inside.  I know this by how I respond to life.  Things expected of me because of the skin I live in has been hurtful.  I have had a hard time with tears, until i accepted my inner self.  Now I have a hard time controlling my emotions.  My temper and passion have always been extreme and I think it was my stupid bottling up emotions to be a better boy.  It made this girl unhealthy.  

OK, I have rambled a bunch.  I better get to bed.  I just wish we all could live as we should be.  I hope I dream of finding the M.A.U. again and becoming a variation of the person I want to be like and have the powers to heal and transform others.  I would love to enable others to be OK.

Alexia Rose Alexander