Submitting to be controlled

One thing I desire immensely is to become a hypnotic slave to a loving person.  I get so aroused and thrilled by being tranced.  So far it is only mP3's and some chat trances.  Oh, but to one day be totally submerged in the control of another, it would be bliss.  I imagine the act now and just fall softly into a self-imposed trance.  My new Mistress has had me create a place in my mind and it seems to be where I end up.  I dream in there of her changing me to fit her whims and making me a sex toy.  Life would be so much easier if it were that more and the problems I face looking after others less.

*SIGH*

Alexia

"Somedays I'm Your Super Bitch"

I know it was bitchy, its why I used Cristina's lyrics to title this one.  It has been a month.  I really just was curious in a way.  I had been busy and entering a hectic time.  I noticed I had missed two weeks on the Blog.  My bitch side took over and just wanted to see if anyone would miss me.

Seems no one did.  I stayed off of Rachel's Haven as well.  I apparently wasn't even missed.  I have become so non-active that I guess I don't exist anymore.  I watched so many I was close to leave.  I realized I was not able to be a part of the communities like I was at first.  Part of me wonders if I were still as messed up if I would have stayed as connected.

Isn't it weird how when I was off kilter I was more desirable to be around.  Start trying to get better and you become lost.  I miss a few people, but I guess I am just not enough fun to be missed.  Sorry about that being away stuff.  I hope to be the rest of the lyrics and "Keep Getting Better."

Alexia Rose