I Would Love to be able to Be a "Chick with a Dick"

If I could pass as a woman right now I would go long distances away and spend time being myself.  I am OK with never having the surgery if I could become more of who I am.  I do want to maybe try hormone pellets in the future.  I think being a pretty Transsexual like Bailey Jay or Sarina Valentina would be glorious.

I would have a great deal of work to do.  I am wondering now just how much i can do without hormones.  I have mentioned that I believe I am one of the hormonally messed up during development gals.  I have a smaller thing than most of the gals that are on hormones and have small cocks.  For me though, the idea that I could walk through a mall and shop without fear for pretty things and get treated like I should be is just a sweet fantasy.

Another would be to see if I would be approached as a woman or turn heads because I caught some man's fancy.  Would I ever find someone.  What about a cute woman?  That would be the best.  I know I am open to either because I want to be loved and that is not about gender anymore.  I just wish I could be me and there be no repercussions.  I know though that we are labeled as freaks, whether we are in hiding as I am or out there struggling and living like so many others are.  There is a nice young gal from the Haven that I admire and root for everyday.  She transitioned when young.  She has cheered and done things I would love to have tried.  She found her soulmate and they are living life and I hope everyday that blessings and joy cover them.  I would love that, so I am also a tiny bit jealous.

Still, I will try and stay on the brighter side of my thoughts and hope one day I will know the touch and embrace of my partner.

Alexia