I Would Love to be able to Be a "Chick with a Dick"

If I could pass as a woman right now I would go long distances away and spend time being myself.  I am OK with never having the surgery if I could become more of who I am.  I do want to maybe try hormone pellets in the future.  I think being a pretty Transsexual like Bailey Jay or Sarina Valentina would be glorious.

I would have a great deal of work to do.  I am wondering now just how much i can do without hormones.  I have mentioned that I believe I am one of the hormonally messed up during development gals.  I have a smaller thing than most of the gals that are on hormones and have small cocks.  For me though, the idea that I could walk through a mall and shop without fear for pretty things and get treated like I should be is just a sweet fantasy.

Another would be to see if I would be approached as a woman or turn heads because I caught some man's fancy.  Would I ever find someone.  What about a cute woman?  That would be the best.  I know I am open to either because I want to be loved and that is not about gender anymore.  I just wish I could be me and there be no repercussions.  I know though that we are labeled as freaks, whether we are in hiding as I am or out there struggling and living like so many others are.  There is a nice young gal from the Haven that I admire and root for everyday.  She transitioned when young.  She has cheered and done things I would love to have tried.  She found her soulmate and they are living life and I hope everyday that blessings and joy cover them.  I would love that, so I am also a tiny bit jealous.

Still, I will try and stay on the brighter side of my thoughts and hope one day I will know the touch and embrace of my partner.

Alexia

Horny and Bothered

I wish so much that I could give a nice African American Man a mind blowing Blow Job.  I get so wet dreaming about this action.  Last night I watched a wonderful video where a gorgeous redheaded transsexual be taken by a handsome dark skinned lover.  When he crouched over her and basically fucked her mouth I creamed my panties.  I then basically seduced my Sweet Boy while he was on vacation.  I sucked him off over chat and it was so good.

I guess Jessica Coyote from the Haven would be proud of my becoming a cock whore.  She helped me way back when I was first curious about sucking cock.  Jennifer also helped me so much.  I need to improve cash flow and buy a dildo so bad.  I want to imagine sucking cock.  On the same video it was so hot to see them have sex.  I wished so bad it was me in her place.  I want to be a woman so bad sometimes.  I just dream about a strong man taking me.  If the world were as I wanted, I would be collared and at the feet of my Sweet Boy and ready to forever be his Pet.  *sigh*

Alexia Rose

Nothing to say......

I want to post.  I just have nothing to say or too much to write.  I have so many thoughts right now I am in a dizzy space.  I seem to be constantly horny and masturbate all the time.  One thing that I have noticed is that I can't really masturbate by stroking when the deformity gets erect.  It happened the other morning, that old ailment that the maleness I have deals with, you awake with morning wood.

I could not get aroused by the thought of wrapping my hand around it.  Only when it had softened enough to push it inside my body and rub it like a clit did I cum.  I am totally unable to get going any other way.  It makes me feel more like I am who I should be in a strange way.

Guess I did have something to say after all.

Alexia

Be Gone a week

I will be gone for a week at least Sweeties.  Life interrupts the life I wish I lived.  Hope all of you are doing well this summer and dreaming sweet sexy fantasies like me.

Alexia Rose

Weird thought

If a male werewolf mated with a human woman or a she-werewolf mated with a human male, would they have a litter or just one babe, pup, or what?

Alexia

Some days I feel Trapped inside my body

I have been so busy and not free to groom my body hair lately.  I just looked the other morning with disgust at my arms and knew the Parental Unit was away so I took an electric razor and began cutting.  Arms and then chest, until legs and all I could reach was trimmed.  I had bought a new type of Veet hair remover that was suppose to work in the shower.  I took the sponge and began caressing it over my body that I could reach.  I then stood in the shower and waited while it went to work.  For once there was no burning feeling.  It was working and I felt it, just not the pain from skin pores opening up.  It worked very well.  I am going to use it again Friday I hope and try and spray some Veet on my back.  I always seem to feel more like I should after getting that yucky gross hair off my body.  I even took hair from my deformed pussy.  It didn't burn down there either.  Nice stuff.

What really tripped my head around was the new Lavender Shampoo.  Something about the scent makes me so euphoric.  I want to just rub my pussy and cum so hard.  It makes my head spin.  I have been feeling so bad though since.  I feel like I am trapped inside this bodysuit that is a boy.  I want to find a way to shed the suit and be the woman I feel like.  The picture I chose would be the first thing I would probably do.  I do like that I have removed the hair down there.  It at least make me feel more like I should.  I am just whiny I guess.  Lonely.  I wish I had someone to cuddle up with at night.

Alexia

I am OK

I apologize for the time between posts.  Real life and vacation caused me to be away.  On vacation.  I got to see many scrumptious gals at a Convention.  I wish I could have dressed up like them and had the boys drooling.  I would so love to flirt with the guys and gals.  Maybe even take one or multiples to my hotel room and spend time doing naughty things to them.  I am horny and wet just thinking about it.  *sighs*  It is difficult when you are looking and in your heart it is not as much desire but jealousy that is the emotion you feel.

Alexia