Need for Balance

Figured I would do a bit of an update.  I am in an up and down battle with the diabetes right now.  I feel really bad at times, but I have come close to getting the target range before the rough patch.  I stay horny all the time.  It makes me wonder what would happen if I ever go on hormones?  I think I would like to try just taking the female hormones, not really for transition right now, but for balance in my body.  I think the mood swings I have comes in part from being at odds in my body.  I have the little cock like so many of the girls on hormones.  I really think I was screwed up in my formation as a fetus or whatnot.

I am scared to mention something, but I need to in a way.  The one I love and I had a nice chat the other night.  It was almost like when we first met......I had to stop from wanting her so bad, but I was flirting really shamelessly.  I know that there will never be anything like a happily ever after, but it was nice to be comfortable with each other again.

She is determined to aid my cock whorish ways.  She gave me a hypno file that really did strengthen what I already feel when I see a nice big cock.  The woman who recorded the file has such a good voice.  I have also found some cool hypno porn on the Net.  I love the good ones where I almost go under myself.  *sigh*

My hair is to a point I feel it move on my head.  I wonder what the people around me think as I grow it out.  Dad is making remarks, but I just let it go and think, "if you only knew" as I ignore him.  

*kiss*

Alexia