I visit a site that has many erotic images on it. Today these two were on there one after the other. They invoke such desire and arousal in me. I want to be on my knees between the legs of both gorgeous bodies. I have realized recently I want to be a woman, but I want to love both genders. My perfect dream would to be taken in and loved by a Husband and wife. I would be their plaything and toy, but they would love me and I would feel that love forever. I once dreamed of being this, and as they had children I would be the nanny for them. I would have a place in the family and be loved.
So I am weird by society's standards. I want submissive love. Can there be romantic submission? Sometimes I see the stories of humiliation and bondage and I know that is not me. I am submissive and want to obey, but this aspect it not for me. Walking into a room and finding Mistress or Master laying like these pictures would cause me to begin licking and sucking until they release there nectar into my mouth and then sigh with relief. They would stroke my head and tell me "Good Girl" as I shiver. I wish I could pass as a woman. I watch YouTube and personal sites of T-Girls and am so envious of the women that are passable. I want that so much. I cannot see it in the mirror for me. I also know it is the end of the things good in my life. I admire Women who were able to become who there are. We are the lost people. Transgender people are last on the LGBT list. I think many would drop us from that list if possible. Even within the ranks of our own we are divided. I read the different attacks from different segments of Transgendered women. All the while young people feel lost and suicide is still a strong fact. Depression is hard to deal with when you can't even admit part of the stress you feel. I am just filled with conflicting emotions today I guess. If only my world in my imagination could be real. Then life would be better for so many people, Trans and otherwise.
Alexia
4 comments:
awwww I know exactly how you feel hun
*strokes Alexia's hair*
Don't let it get your girly heart down too much. Think of sparkles and sunshine and glitter and unicorns and all the things girls love. You'll soon get over it.
Seriously though - you ever wanna chat to someone who wants to listen then email me and we can find somewhere.
I feel very much the same.. but I also feel very positive about reaching some conclusions about who I am and its started me on a journey of self-discovery that I'm excited about.. although it will be hard emotionally. You might have already been down it I dunno..
Anyway.. luv your blog.. keep well
*kissy kiss*
Princess Tiffany
http://crossdreamer.blogspot.com
Its ok Alexia. You have an advantage. You know what you want. Now you jest have to find it. I have no doubt you will succeed in your quest if you follow your heart. And as for the depression. I understand, its a dreary monster that feeds on your soul like a cancer. My suggestion to defeat it for a while is Music. Getting out of the house and into a beautiful serene natural environment helps too.
wow, you are a beauty, would love to chat, are you in the usa/uk.
Jenny xx
Yes.. how great would it be if a simple spell could solve all our problems, starting with our bodies?! I guess that's the reason why we like TG Captions so much! Don't let the idea fade.. keep up this great work! You are beautiful and unique, don't ever forget that! ;)
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