I want to be a girl.......

I am having one of those weeks. I get so desperately caught up in my desire to be a girl. I see the hair on my body and I want it gone. I stand in the shower with my eyes closed and imagine the body I want so much. I see me in my mind all smooth and curvy and just cute. Walking around I wonder how I would look in the outfits other women wear.

It is nothing more than a twist of DNA and that lousy Y-chromosome that did this to me. I am so old though. My cute days seem so far away. Sorry, I am whiny. I want to stomp my feet and just pout. I know that in my heart I am Bi. I could so fall for the right guy if I had my girl body. Even if I just had everything changed through hormones and my stupid boy parts still dangled I could fall. I still though desire a girlfriend. We girls are just sexy. We are smoother and have that way of just being a goddess that drives me crazy. I still want that one woman my heart desires to be my first kiss, even though I know that is a mere dream.

OK, so I am just a Non Op T-Girl. I still feel like a girl inside. I just and stuck in this yucky boy body. I keep thinking maybe one day we will be able to manipulate genes and I will get the chance to really become what I should have been. *sigh* I will hush now. I still want the hair gone. *stomps foot*

Thanks for indulging me,
Alexia Rose