Twin Soul

Just wanted to let everyone know I am OK.  I know a few people get worried when I am absent too long. I have a temp job that will be taking up much time and also require rest and sleep.  My Star would say I am corrupting small minds.  Truly, my mind corrupted by her is all I really wish.  I have been reading a great set of novels.  Inside there is a character who is called a twin soul.  She is a woman that was born male and she presents herself as one until they mus flee during a time of war.  It started me thinking and pondering feelings inside me.

 

I feel like her in so many ways.  I want to be like her and just become the woman I should be, but I am confined and trapped by the danger it would bring to me.  It has made me see things and think on thinks.  One being my coming to realize I do not think that I could have sex with a female like the body I wear should.  When I look at a beautiful woman, I still think of being with her.  The difference is now I accept I want to take my tongue and fingers and use them to make her feel pleasure.  Then I grow sad knowing I can never feel the same pleasure and that she would never accept a person like me, and probably no woman could.  I am not going to whine.

 

That is the other thing I have thought about, my sexual nature online and how my mood swings and stuff probably made many who I considered friends and even more to just leave me alone.  I do release my depression on here and online a bunch.  I guess it is because I have no one in real life to speak to and that I see safety in the people who were around me.  The problem comes though from my mixed relationships.  Many I have had cyber chat sex with.  I t is all the sex and intimate interactions I have had or have.  I guess it was not what should have been.  My moods changing sometimes or my need to just have some form of intimacy turns or turned some who I cared for away I guess.  It hurts and sometimes my damaged and depressed brain uses it to make me feel things that are not real, at least I hope they are not real.

 

On a good note, I have Farrah hair.  My hair is getting longer, it feels nice and even though thin on top, it has that Farrah Fawcett feathering naturally forming.  I like that idea.  *sigh*  I only I could wear that red swimsuit from the famous poster.  Still I am working on growing it long and will need to make a decision about trimming for manageability.  I have only shared with a few an idea I have for it.  If I can, when I get it long enough I want to donate it to Locks of Love and let that be a way to honor one brave woman that means so much to many of us who find safety at Rachel's Haven.

 

So stay hanging about Sweeties.  I miss some of you so much.  Wish we were lying on a beach naked and watching the sexy guys and gals walk by, also naked.  Yes, Jilly, me and you letting our sun kissed bodies be ogled by those around us.  *kiss*

 

Alexia

DESERT SPRINGS SPA ADVENTURE

So here is my story for the March Contest at Rachel's Haven. Sorry to those of you that met with a log in to the Haven. I thought we had Guest access now too, but I will check in the future before linking again. Anyway, here is the story and it is a story. I hope you enjoy. Comments are always welcome as I need feedback to grow as a writer, even the amateurish writer I am. 

Alexia Rose 

My March Caption Contest Entry

I am going to be mean to all of you right now. I am going to place a link to my March Contest Entry at Rachel's Haven.  You can find it here Desert Springs Spa Adventure.  There are many great stories in the Contest and I hope you will read mine and others.  Voting is different this time, My Star is changing it a bit for this month in an attempt to make it more something.  Been a bunch of talk about the voting process.  Anyway.  After the voting closes I will post it here.  So, wait if you want or go visit Rachel's Haven and see many great captions.

Below is a pic I used in my story.  The Background was supplied by ShySteffie.

Alexia Rose

Still Here and Still Horny

Honestly, I have been playing many games on G+.  Well, also watching porn.  Yeah, OK, I have been masturbating a bunch as well.  I have found a couple of Hypnosis porn from mindcontroltheater.com on the free sites.  Not the one with my avatar woman in it "Kept" or the extra hot "Yard Sale at Hell House."  I would love to have some extra cash to buy those two.  Besides Justine, Paris Kennedy is in one.  A cute little Redhead named Jessie Palmer as well.  I could just cream my panties right now thinking about the trailers.

I have been watching huge black cocks spread out tiny tight pussies and been jealous as I watch.  Wishing I was bent over and him filling my up as I screamed with pleasure.  Oh I am so silly for handsome black men.

One perk has been spending some time with Jillisa.  We synced up on YIM a couple of times.  I would love to be vacationing with her.  We could find us some hot guys or gals and have lots of fun.  Saw Sweet Boy and Irish Fellow as well.  It was nice being used and controlled by they.  I feel loved when they are with me.

Just wanted to check in.  Work has been busy.  My fatigue or depression is flaring.  Tonight is so hot.  I think I will just sleep in my panties.  Love you Sweeties.

Alexia

Some Days

There are mornings I wake and I feel in a weird way.  Leap Day was such a morning.  The boy body was doing something that I have come to hate.  The phallus thing that should be my perfect clitoris was stretched out and I began feeling wrong.  It is strange because I am aroused because my mind begins thinking of having a cock, just between my soft folds and not pointing the other way.  So I am in a paradox of arousal that makes it difficult to push the clit back inside where it belongs.

It is a fight.  I almost cry every time this happens.  I won the battle today and this is how.  My mind began telling a silly story of two men being hypnotized.  One is entranced to see his best friend as a sexy girl.  His friend transforms before his eyes and the primal urge to fuck her is implanted.  The other man is made to love being the girl of his friend's dreams.  He is aware he is a man, but his mind is rewritten to begin to change.  Soon the one is ramming his long thick cock in his friend's ass and he cups the non-existent breasts.

I then wandered in my mind to myself becoming so aroused that I began rubbing the now behaving internal nub.  I see a big black cock playing with my nose before I am soon sucking hard on my lover's rod.  He soon spreads my legs and my slit as he fucks me into unconsciousness.

When I finally get up, I feel at peace.  I am fully myself in my mind.  I even seem to walk different as I travel the house.  Showering can be interesting.  My growing hair makes this even better.  *sigh*  I needed to feel like myself.  "The Boy" has had to be walking the world so much lately.  I miss being around those who make me feel like myself.  I hope to be able to relax with some of you really soon.

Alexia Rose

Hey

Been busy of late.  Dealing with fatigue and health issues as well.  Been a rough day yesterday.  Be back soon I hope.

Alexia

SK8R GRRL

I made this for a wonderful Erotica Author I am following on Google+ called Tessie L'Amour.  She is an awesome writer and I hope she likes this caption I did for her.

Alexia