Feeling down

Something I have known and dreaded for many years has become my reality.  Genetically I have known I would face this day and it has arrived.  I am diabetic and the last confirmation of that has come to be.

I took the first shot of insulin today.  It has me depressed.  It has me feeling so down I just want to sleep or eat myself to death.  I have so much I need to do this week and I just feel terrible.

I am battling through this, but is is very hard.  I feel so guilty for feeling like this is so bad, so many others are dealing with so much else that is far worse than my having to take insulin.  So I feel just that much more horrible.

I am sorry to those I should have talked to today.  Just didn't feel like it.  Add I had someone ask about why I haven't gotten married and had kids yet.  Harmless in so many ways, but to me it reaffirms that I am alone and will die that way.  I just have to keep pushing ahead.  I have to fight through this.

Alexia

Smooth Skin

I used about two cans of VEET! and sprayed my body.  I am now as hair free as possible and feeling heavenly.  I love this feeling.  I think this makes me feel the most like myself.  Panties feel better on a hairless crotch as well.  

I just so wish I could look like this and be presenting my smooth skin for you.  Would you like my treasure?  Could I lick yours?  I am really stressed in some ways though.  I keep having the need for a big dildo to suck on.  The problem is cash.  I am responsible.  I pay for the health and car and the other stuff and then see nothing for a toy.

*pouts*

I have been sucking on hot dogs.  *blush*  They are just so small, and it is too tempting to bite them.  I don't want that habit.  Did all my boy followers just wince?  *giggles*

Don't worry boys.  I would love and worship your cocks if I had them in my hands and mouth.  Gently licking and stroking until I just suck and move over it.  I would let you come in my mouth and I will try and swallow it all.  Then I would want a kiss.  Sharing is sweet you know.

Sorry, I guess I am feeling silly today.

Alexia Rose

APPLES: HAVEN DELICIOUS

Hey There Peoples!  Here is my submission in the Rachel's Haven August Caption Contest.  I had this pic and was toying with the ad idea after the theme of Haven Products was announced.  I waited so maybe people will remember it, the deadline was today.  So maybe people will like this and vote for it.

Now I had a second phrase idea after the first one.  I like the Eve phrase better so I placed it as my submission.  I did for fun place this second one because it is too good to not caption it as well.  Maybe some of you can add your own ideas in the comments section.  Who knows, maybe I will make a caption for whoever has the best ad idea.

Now, for the members of the Haven and the people that should be, here is the August Contest Page.  Go and read and vote.  One of the main issues we have been discussing at the Haven has been the lack of votes.  I am challenging my Blog readers to go and participate.  Most of you probably are Havenites.  The rest would probably like the site and enjoy a place to be free and safe as you explore your desires about TransGender Stuff.  Yes, I would love your vote, but that is not what this is about.  During the past few weeks people have been crafting and posting Captions for this contest.  They work hard and deserve as many people reading and voting as possible.  Please consider doing this for some really creative people that belong to Rachel's Haven.

Love,

Alexia Rose

A Dream of Love

I have been waiting all day for Master to return.  He takes my leash and as I am still blindfolded leads me forward.  Soon he removes the mask and the light hurts my eyes.  I see him and kneel at his feet.  He rubs my ass as I prostrate before him and kiss his bare feet.  One hard jerk and my neck is pulled up and I see the bulge in his shorts.  I place my mouth over it and begin massaging his cock through the fabric.  Before long he pulls my head back and walks to the couch.

He slips the shorts to the floor and Pulls my leash to signal his desire.  I stare at his engorged member as I slip off my blouse and soon am naked except for my collar.  I straddle Master and slowly lower my pussy lips over his hard shaft.  I love the sensation as my treasure covers his manhood.  Soon I am fucking him as my hands push against his hard chest.  I see his desire and love for me in his eyes as I continue to milk his cock with my pussy.  I climax before he does and it is difficult, but I maintain my focus.  I want to feel his hot cum fill my hole.  Soon he groans as his dick erupts sending hot bursts of cum into me.

He allows me to cuddle at his side as he strokes my hair and calls me his Good Girl.  I am in heaven.

I wish that were true.  I wish I could have my happy ever after instead of dreams of one.

Alexia 

Odd but Good

Something felt different all day Sunday.  I found my self having to not walk and stand like myself sometimes.  It was like something had finally shifted in my head.  I have been showering and feeling different as well.  I close my eyes and I am not in a deformed boy's form.  Only the strange feelings of a growth under my pussy connects me mentally to that body.  It has been wonderful feeling like I should in my own skin.  I wish I had longer hair and my breast were better formed and I could start feeling even better.  It is odd, but wonderful.

My daydreams are better as well.  I even felt like I had my mouth around a cock in one.  It was fleeting, but I felt it so real as my mouth was open.  I have been sleeping in and wearing my panties more.  I need to figure a way to buy some more and wear nothing but panties from now own.  I love that my boi clit stays inside my hole almost always.  I love that I do not get erect anymore.  I get wet down there instead.  The mind is powerful.  Those hypnosis files and my own reinforcing have helped this happen I believe.  I even think there would be a way to dress as a girl at a Comic Convention using a latex bodysuit and full head hood.  Daydreams abound.

Love,
Alexia Rose

Reality Bullets

After suggesting a "Girls with Guns" theme for the caption contest at Rachel's Haven I came up with this little number for fun.  What do ya think?

Alexia

Woke up imagining.......

I was standing on a seaside balcony in my silk robe and nothing else.  I feel his strong arms wrap around me and I also feel his shaft push my robe between my legs.  He opens the robe and takes my breast in his hands and caresses them as I lean my head back.  Soon he has dropped my robe to the deck and we are standing naked as the first rays of a new morning dance over us.  I can feel the head of his cock slip between my folds and soon he is making love to me slowly.

I moan loudly as he lifts my bottom with each thrust.  I am reaching back and holding his ass as he cradles my breast.  The cool morning air has me feeling a combination of coolness and then warmth as I flush with his desire for me.

I am soon filled with his seed, so full his cum is dripping down my leg.  I am dizzy with love and after a few more thrust by him I climax and squirt around his shaft.

And then I woke up fully......wet.....and wanting more.

BDS