Being Sick Sucks, except for the antibiotic induced Dreams

I am sick with the seasonal attack by grass and pollen.  My throat is scratchy and I am coughing.  Sinus infection and the high powered antibiotics have me dragging.  It sucks and I feel bad.  It is just balanced by one thing.  I have the most doped up sexy dreams.  I feel my sexy self in my dreams.  I also feel what it must be to feel drunk, since I don't drink, I don't know.  I do know I get made love to by girls and boys I know online.  I cuddle with the one who I can't be with.  Sometimes my Sweet Boy make love to me.  I had one yesterday of my Master taking me from behind as I exercised.  So at least I can feel sexy while I have this stuffed up nose and constantly cough my guts out.

Hope you all are better than me right now.  Plus, good thoughts need to be sent to my Jillisa, she is dealing with some junk that is bad and I want us to send good energy her way.  I love you Jillisa.  If I had the power to heal people I would take care of you and so many others that are suffering from things.  Hang in there sexy.

Alexia

Saint and Sinner

I wonder sometimes about who I really am inside.  Not just the fact that I am a female internally, but more of the way I desire to be a bad girl.  I have the dreams of being the proper lady and accord myself the way a nice girl should.  Yet, I also want to be dominated and used for sex.  Sometimes it is to be the kinky partner of my girlfriend or other times to submit to my handsome Master who has a big black cock that fills any hole he wants.  I wonder about this explosive desire.  Is it a reaction to my lack of any sexual contact in reality?  Does my sluttiness have a cause?

I told you about being with my Sweet Boy online the other night.  He treated me in such a commanding way.  I was totally his whore.  I wanted his roughness and his love that also showed through. I know that if I were able to be a girl and have the body for it I would want to strip.  The idea of turning men on by stripping gets me so hot.  I would love to be able to do that.  Inside I revel in the dirty thoughts I have.  Does that make me wrong?  I know many of the other girls like me dream of dresses and stuff.  I would rather find a hot latex slave outfit and be on a leash and collar.  So sometimes I feel a conflict.

Alexia 

I would be an awesome Mom

I love children.  I think that might be the one thing about being lonely and not ever seeing a future with someone in my life.  I read Isobelle answering a question left on her Blog, she mention if she were born a girl she would be married and have children by now.  I think I would have kids too.  I guess it is just being around some today and the time I spend around them all the time that makes me yearn to have some of my own to love and care for.  I so wish I could snuggle with my little girl and read to her, or a little boy, either way I just been in a pondering mood.

P.S.  Venatus, your words of care and encouragement mean a great deal.  I just wanted you to know that and thank you for the comments you make as I struggle along.  I keep you in my thoughts and prays as I go through each week.  I know you deal with crushing emotions and I wish so much that sometimes I could just give you a hug and let you know you mean a great deal to the world.

Alexia Rose 

Fantasy and Being Horny

I wish I could just sit and masturbate all day sometimes.  I love that I don't do it like a boy anymore.  It is good to be able to rub and push my fingers into that hole, even if it is not a real one.  I wish sometimes that rubbing would magically make it real.  *sigh*  I watched a cool vid today and saw a lady that was naked and blindfolded while in a trance be seduced by the thearapist.  It was so hot.  Watching the one caress the body of the other while telling her a story for her mind was so hot.

My desires get so hard to hold in.  I really need to find ways to be more active in a solo manner.  I dream of sucking cock a great deal.  I wonder if I will ever be with someone, anyone.  I think it would be hard being with another woman, my deformed boy equipment might not respond the way she would want it too.  I watch and see pretty women and wonder what it would be like to lick them and use my tongue to pleasure them.  I guess this is why so many of us get depressed.  The fantasy turns to loneliness.

Alexia 

Pet Here

I have been so horny and submissive lately.  I was able to see Master, well Alexia calls him her Sweet Boy, but he is Master.  Alexia asked him to make her his Pet, that is me.  I love submitting to my Master.  He gave me a gift.  It was a silver bowl.  He put his cum in it for me.  I loved it so much.  Master then had me masturbate for him and beg to let him stick his cock in me.  Soon he was taking my ass and I felt so loved by Master.  After all that he fucked me so good.  He pulled out in time to spew his seed all over me.  I still feel it on me as the sweat is drying.  I am going back to my basket at the foot of Master's bed.  I hope Alexia's Master does not get mad at her.  She can't help it.  I was created long ago and get to play so little.  Maybe I could share some tricks with her. *giggles*  Good Night.

Pet

LUTHOR'S NEFARIOUS PLAN

Here is another from my Folder at Rachel's Haven.  Wildcard made this one.  I hope she is OK, I haven't chatted with her for a while.  We share a love of comics.  So that is why I get to sex Superman to weakness.  *giggles* Hope you like this story.

Alexia

FERTILITY IDOL

This is a caption made for me at the Haven by my beautiful and wonderful Jillisa.  She has been feeling blue lately and I want to send her hugs and kisses.  I love You Sweetie.  Hope to chat soon *KISS*

Alexia

Fertility Idol by Jillisa