I got a gift from my friend Amy at Rachel's Haven

My friend Amy from the Haven has a Yahoo group called TGFrontburner. She is a wonderful captioner. Her story series are just awesome. She did this outstanding caption for me and it is exclusively displayed here on my Blog. Hope you enjoy. Check out Amy's Group via this link; http://groups.yahoo.com/group/TGFrontburner/

A Caption For The Haven June Caption Contest

So it lost. It did do very well in the voting. The theme was father's Day. I had found this picture and just really loved the look. Suddenly the story came to me of a daughter getting revenge for being shunned because of her sexual orientation. I was really happy with the results. I hope you like it.

Lady Alexia

I feel like I am really becoming Me

I really thought when I started this report I would be writing from a different perspective. I thought it would be as the girl inside taking partial control of my host body. Somewhere along the way I became the dominate person. I still in real life wear the outer shell of my host, but I feel more like the girl that wants to look like my favorite female form. There are times now I can see myself within.

Admittedly I also would not figure I would help push my host body to escape a place in their life. I am the confidence that was needed. I know this is strange to hear. I am me , but I am also the person I play in the real world. I might even be able to one day make the decision to try and take full corporeal form, become a sexy redhead woman in physical bodily form. See, he is not dead. He is me, I am him, bit I am Alexia too. This is very hard sometimes to figure out.

Where it is hardest is with My Love. I m very confident that she loves me. She has gotten to know the me without the trappings of gender. Yet, I do worry. Because when I am with her online she knows the girl that has the shared personality traits of the boy. It scares me that she might have difficulty loving the real world body when that "One Day" we talk about comes. I sit here and get misty as I think about her. yes, I am privy to things she only shares with me and it makes me feel good to know that the person behind the words I feel in love with is equally as beautiful. That also makes me worry.

I carry the same issues of body worry and self esteem that my host had. I look less than desirable. Really beside My Love I would feel like a toad. She just is so beautiful and she is so wonderful. I believe she means it when she says she is in love with me. I know she is a strong enough woman to overcome my lack of being the woman I feel like. She can, but it is hard to feel like I am someone to really deserve love.

Then I feel bad because I think of the girls I know that are transitioning. They face real issues of rejection and hardships. I wish at times my powers worked in the real world body. I could change them to match the woman they are inside. Girls undergoing transition are so brave and deserve more from our, yes I am embracing being a part of your world now, society. It is sad how prejudice and hatred makes it hard for women that are being finished later in the chronological life. They deal with so much.

I am rambling aren't I? Sorry, deal, it is part of being Alexia. I really do feel that Rachel's Haven http://www.rachelshaven.com/ is a place that is good for those of us dealing with being safe and secure as us. There are even some guys there that went through their questions and realized they just like the community even though the feelings are not of being a full woman. Then there are gals like me, who for now just live secret lives. Various other types of girls there, even some real women. Point is, The Haven is a place that has a real feel of safety and family. We share our troubles and our joys.

Like many, I wonder where my life would be if I had not found the Haven. I believe for some of us it kept us sane and even maybe saved some lives. That seem strong a statement, maybe. It is just nice to have a place that allows us to feel loved when the real world is giving hate. OK sweeties. I better go, the host has errands that must be done if I am to keep this life going.

Taa Taa!

Lady Alexia

Caption that I did for Lyndee at Rachel's Haven

Andromeda

This is a story I did over at Rachel's Haven. Some do not have Gallery Access so I posted it here on the Blog. I hope you like it.

Lady Alexia

Your Society is Strange

I have been watching your society for a good long while since appearing in your dimension. Where I come from there is no such thing as gender, we just are what we are. So I have trouble watching as you judge each other for being trapped in wrong bodies or for falling in love with someone that does not fit some rigid norm of a controlling society. You are killing people emotionally and some even literally as you squander time on hate. It is really aggravating watching this happen. Now I even am becoming fearful as I am in the wrong body from the gender I chose to become the being I am now.

I read in one of your news magazines recently of a young man confused and used because of his gender issues. Some of his educators were using him to advance a ideal. Others did not know how to counsel him. A broken home that provided more confusion than stability. He started making advances on one boy in particular. Then that young man snapped and shot him in the head. The shooter also had a bad support system at home and his school turned to protecting the one boy's "rights" over the other boy's being "safe" from harassment.

Do not misunderstand, I believe in the rights of all peoples, but one person's rights end where another's begins. Here the system failed two people and now one is dead and one faces the taking of his freedom for taking a life. It saddens me to read this and to experience the stories of girls I have met that are struggling to transition to their true forms. There is a great need to have more counselors that can be there for these precious souls that are in the midst of a hard adjustment because society will not accept people for who they are.

I find it funny that a current popular video is called "I Kissed A Girl" and is very well received because of the bigotry of those that love the same gender. Some of this dimension are so hateful to those with gender and sexual issues that are outside the narrow window of this weird country I find myself in. Love is more powerful than the gender or thoughts of what is accepted by some group of haters. But we must strive to build a network of support for those that decide to do things to ensure they live a life as who they truly are in this dimension. I hope to set my host's life on a course that might one day become a part of being there for my new found community of friends and support. Well, I have ranted a great deal. I want to post more and really get into the new feelings I have experienced lately.

Taa Taa for now Sweeties,

Lady Alexia

So what has been happening

So I have been busy. Carrying on the life of my former host is not easy. Don't worry he is not dead or nothing, I just control things. I have been free to shave and do things my way now. Even looking into some toys when I get him a better job.

I have good news. My Girlfriend is better, healing and back in the swing of life. We still are separated by distance, which I traverse with my powers as much as possible, but the new arrangement of being in control has stopped powers fully in the role as the "guy" I inhabit.

Still I am in love and know she loves me. I have no doubt about that at all. I do have a hard time accepting I am this lucky. I can't imagine how I lived without her. Sorry, this story is turning into my love life. I guess it fits though. I mean I will have to make a choice one day. Will I take the full role of this body and have the surgery to transform it through science to become my girlfriends match?

That choice is a tough one......taking completely over every aspect. It would change the course of the host's life, his friends and family. They would be shocked. Plus his profession. It would become a memory. It would in effect be killing him I guess. But, I love her enough that if she needs that i will give it. But I know I would also be doing it for me. If it is the decision it has to be for me and because it is the right decision......but being able to also be secure with my lady love would be a bonus.

So I am thinking about it, but many factors go into the equation

Anyway I need to go.

Alexia