Hello Darlings,

My health is very bad today. I have started on that journey I alluded to before. One thing about it is being naked. I love being Naked. The feel of bare skin and cool air. My body burns up so much so clothes can make me very sweaty. Being Nude is so nice.

There is a thrill on the new journey. I will be opening myself up to someone like never before. The reward will be living an online life of submission I desire. 

I do hope there is a great deal of sex. I am still a horny gal that loves being used for Pleasure.

Work soon, will be hard as i feel bad.

Bye Sweeties,
Alexia Rose

In transition, sadly not that kind of transition.

I have been trying yo balance my real life with the person I am inside. One thing lead me to quit a second job. I am also battling health issues as to having no insulin now because of cost. I am battling my depression and dysphoria which is walking hand in hand.

I do feel sexier than ever sometimes.  I feel like my online sex has been so good lately. I also seem to have a possibility to expand my need to submit. I hope it works out.  

I am still slowly writing for tgstorytime.com and you can find my work under AlexiaRose. If you have never read anything on there it is a great tg fiction site with something for everyone.

I wish I could do better keeping in touch, bit it seems all of life works hard against us. I am still alive though. I am still your Alexia.

Alexia Rose

*KISSES*

Been Writing

Hey Sweet Readers,

I wanted to make sure I wrote more and let you know what I was doing.  I have been more at ease in some ways with myself.  I feel myself maybe getting to a point where I will tell the Doctor about being TG.  That could only help at this point.  I know some of my anxiety is coming from my gender identity issues.  I have been wearing my panties more often.  I found a new Nair product that works great on legs, arms, and bikini areas.  Keep it off your nipples though.  Oh my it hurt for two days.  I had to cover them with band-aids.

I have at long last started to write.  I began a story on TG Storytime.  Convention Dreams is my first submission and it seems to be well received. Look for the title or my Name; AlexiaRose.  I am almost finished with it.  If I can start writing consistently I think I would like to start a patron page somewhere.  Would anybody pay for my stories?  Not sure.  I think I could start by expanding from my caption ideas.  It would be neat if I could get a bit of extra income to do the Transgender cosplay I want to do next summer.

Anyway, I am alive and living.  I have been in a better head space, but on the edge.  So just send me good thoughts.

Your Alexia

Dreams and Sexuality

I have been running some thoughts around in my head over the last year.  I am sexually active in a cyber type way.  I read stories and watch porn vids as a way to stimulate my imagination.  The best allow me to place myself in the story and become immersed.  In real life I am a 44 year old virgin.  Frustrated is beyond description.

How now can I be sexual in real life?  I am in an industry that would not allow for a true romance with anyone outside of the conservative norm.  So as I have realized I am really attracted to women that have a cock and pass for genetic female.  In public my dream gal would be the perfect girlfriend, in private I could be her submissive girl.  Where is she?  Could we do it, fool the judgmental and be happy?

I know that if I were able to pass I would definitely be bisexual.  I get a nice feeling radiating from deep inside outward when I think of sucking a strong and loving man.  Black would be nice, but really, any sexy guy would do.  Just have a nice cock.  I also want to know the feeling of being spread wide by a cock as my lover thrust in and out of me.

There is a strange happening that is really nice.  I have been able to push my small cock inside and masturbate as close to female as possible.  Now inside of the strong push of cum, there is a slow release.  It makes me feel like I am cumming like I should.

Hope this was not too graphic, but if you have read in the past I guess this is tame.

Alexia Rose

Been a Long Time

Wow, I knew I had not written in a while, but over a year.  Wow.  The stresses in my real life really took a toll.  I pretty much am not myself online like I was.  Yahoo changing software and all that stuff halted message chats with the few people I spoke with online.  It also denied me of serving a wonderful Mistress who truly understood my desires of hypnosis and submission.  Depression has been a battle still.  I have bad and dark times but so far I guess you can say I am winning.

I did buy some bras, those comfort type.  They have helped me figure where my need to exercise is at right now.  I have come to realize my pantie size and that has lead to some wonderful adventures of wearing them when I need to be me out there in that genetic skin I have.  I still dream of being a complete woman.  I want to be penetrated, caressed, kissed, loved.  All that and it hurts sometimes.

The picture of what I need in real life as a mate is clear, but pretty out of reach.  She is a passable gal with a nice cock.  In private I can submit as myself to her and have my desires be realized by one of the most beautiful humans ever created.  We would love each other and provide the emotional support lovers need.  I would be the one being penetrated.  I know my small thing would never satisfy.  She would love me even though I am stuck in a form I should not have.

Otherwise I read a bunch of TG Erotica and transformation stories.  I will see if I can be more active.  I just wanted to let anyone that once cared I was alive.

Alexia Rose

existing

pretty much what i said in may is still true.  just writing to let those that care know i am still living.

Alexia

wish for my reality to be real

I am so torn right now.  I am being forced by work to be even more assertive.  It is killing me inside.  I just want to desperately be the little submissive slut I know I am.  Even now after writing something to my mistress i feel the effects of just letting myself go and be really me.  I could sit and be commanded by her or just kneel in her presence.  It would be lovely.

I am also realizing I am very attracted to strong and beautiful women that have cocks.  I see some very pretty women on sites and would wrap my mouth eagerly around their hard shafts.  I can envision being similar, but deep down I know I want to have a real vagina that they could penetrate.

I wish I could be me for real and forever instead of living a trapped life.

Alexia