Some days I feel such a strong feeling of dysphoria. My body is just so wrong. I really hate testicles. My boi clit is small. It does not intrude the way those disgusting things that hang there do. I hate them. I hate feeling them between my legs. I think if I could afford the operation I would get rid of them. I have had a thought about how we took them from the bull calves we had, but that might be too painful and not work well. No, not self mutilation, we put these really small bands around them and they fell off.I hate hair on my body. I have removed hair on my legs enough with creams that they are now smoother, just some areas still fighting to return. I wish my torso was like that. I have to try and keep a handle on it. I can say that becoming very smooth helps lessen my dysphoria. I feel so much more like myself. I am feeling so emotional right now as I think about it.
Good days and bad days are what I face. I am tortured more and more as I feel like a fake person in this world. I want to be free to be me.
Alexia Rose
12 comments:
I often have the same feeling Surgery is just so damn expensive
I truly get it! In the meantime, brace yourself and keep adjusting, it'll pass.
Oh... Happy New Year! ;)
C4S
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