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I have a terrible cold. Went in from really cold weather to way too hot buildings too much. Plus was out in way cold wind. It has rocked me. I am slipping into jammies and resting. Drinking OJ and hopped up on cold meds. So I am having a bang up V-Day.
Alexia
I heard this on the radio this morning.
What Bird represents wisdom?
Owl.
What bird represents love?
Dove.
What bird represents true love?
Swallow.
That made me giggle. Then I just thought about how true that statement is for so many.
I am so very busy. I did want to give you so image to think of while I was away for the next few days. Here is one of my avatar gal Justine.
I wish I could know what this was like. I mean to have a hard and powerful machine fucking my pussy would be an experience I want to have so very bad. I would love to just have this type of machine hooked up and giving me orgasm after orgasm. Look at those awesome boots. I could see myself in them and a tight short latex dress. One that went above my knee to my neck, completely encasing my torso. Tight sleeve of latex and gloves as well would be such a turn on. No panties of course. Then my lover could have easy access to my treasure. Oh well, off to work. I so wish to have inspiration and time to caption. I have too many pics and need to clear my computers memory.
Kisses Darlings!
Alexia
Been Snowing and power was out a bit. Been vegetating in the house. Be updating more soon. I hope to get the caption bug going again soon too.
Alexia
It has been so long since I went to bed with a wet pussy. I just had the best time with my Sweet Boy in a bit of role play sex. He made me feel so good. I wore my collar and I got so wet. It was wonderful. I like that now my fingers rub a squishy clitty. I like to feel this good. Bedtime, I hope I dream of being with him and just keep this feeling.
MMMMMMM,
Night Night Darlings
Alexia
I watched the movie Gamer. I cannot escape the feeling of wanting to become a controlled woman. I would love to let someone "play" me. I think letting you have control would be wonderful. Would you find me a cock to suck? Would I be with a couple of girls making out? I would hope you would let me be a stripper. I just love the feelings I have had when I let go in YIM and I am completely subservient to someone. My Sweet Boy has done a wonderful job at times truly taking me to the place I want to be. I wish he would now.
I have had a bad night. It took I I had to walk away from a fight with the parent and I had to take one of the quick acting anxiety meds. I have felt so bad and just wanted to not exist. Maybe that is one of the things I want, someone to keep me from ever giving in to the bad thoughts. I wish he would email me a message and trigger his Pet to do something just for him. I wish he could take me as his personal pet to live with him forever.
He has someone special and I have dreamed of being there for both of them. I care about him alot. What I guess would be hard for many to understand is I love him and want them to be together and live a happy life. Yes, I have a selfish fantasy that I could be their live-in pet-slave. I would be there for them as a sexual release and as they need me to look after the family. I want him to have what I feel I will never have.
Sorry, I wanted to write something that you could think of all the sexy ways you might use me. I hoped maybe even you would comment or email me with you fantasy of controlling me. I guess I am just too into the bad thoughts right now.
Your Slave,
Alexia
We are coming to that most dreaded of all holidays for me, Valentine's Day. It is a sad time. One where Life just seems to want to remind me how lonely I am. I have been thinking about Love though. Whether I can ever be truly intimate with someone? If I fall in love I hope I can be Alexia with them. I hope they understand why I don't get erections like my body's outward appearance should. I hope they get that my genitals are deformed and not like they should be. I think about what it would be like to be almost fully female, and yes I am starting to hurt when I think of the term She-Male. It would be nice to find someone I could be held by and that would understand that I was born in the wrong shell.
I wonder if that is even possible. Maybe online is the only place I will ever find intimacy. Is that a sad thing? Can I truly be happy with only an online mate? If it is My Star, then yes. I know it would be painful, but I would be willing to do whatever she wants and be the woman she deserves if she ever said we could be together.
It is funny, but she is the first woman I have ever really felt a strong bond with. I have cared for women, really had strong emotions, but there is something different with My Star. Part of me knows that any woman that might happen across me in the world of flesh and blood will have competition. I love My Star still, and even though I have pulled back so much, I ache to be close to her.
Alexia
I have a terrible cold. Went in from really cold weather to way too hot buildings too much. Plus was out in way cold wind. It has rocked me. I am slipping into jammies and resting. Drinking OJ and hopped up on cold meds. So I am having a bang up V-Day. 
I wish I could know what this was like. I mean to have a hard and powerful machine fucking my pussy would be an experience I want to have so very bad. I would love to just have this type of machine hooked up and giving me orgasm after orgasm. Look at those awesome boots. I could see myself in them and a tight short latex dress. One that went above my knee to my neck, completely encasing my torso. Tight sleeve of latex and gloves as well would be such a turn on. No panties of course. Then my lover could have easy access to my treasure. Oh well, off to work. I so wish to have inspiration and time to caption. I have too many pics and need to clear my computers memory.
It has been so long since I went to bed with a wet pussy. I just had the best time with my Sweet Boy in a bit of role play sex. He made me feel so good. I wore my collar and I got so wet. It was wonderful. I like that now my fingers rub a squishy clitty. I like to feel this good. Bedtime, I hope I dream of being with him and just keep this feeling.
I watched the movie Gamer. I cannot escape the feeling of wanting to become a controlled woman. I would love to let someone "play" me. I think letting you have control would be wonderful. Would you find me a cock to suck? Would I be with a couple of girls making out? I would hope you would let me be a stripper. I just love the feelings I have had when I let go in YIM and I am completely subservient to someone. My Sweet Boy has done a wonderful job at times truly taking me to the place I want to be. I wish he would now.
We are coming to that most dreaded of all holidays for me, Valentine's Day. It is a sad time. One where Life just seems to want to remind me how lonely I am. I have been thinking about Love though. Whether I can ever be truly intimate with someone? If I fall in love I hope I can be Alexia with them. I hope they understand why I don't get erections like my body's outward appearance should. I hope they get that my genitals are deformed and not like they should be. I think about what it would be like to be almost fully female, and yes I am starting to hurt when I think of the term She-Male. It would be nice to find someone I could be held by and that would understand that I was born in the wrong shell.
