Control Me

I watched the movie Gamer. I cannot escape the feeling of wanting to become a controlled woman. I would love to let someone "play" me. I think letting you have control would be wonderful. Would you find me a cock to suck? Would I be with a couple of girls making out? I would hope you would let me be a stripper. I just love the feelings I have had when I let go in YIM and I am completely subservient to someone. My Sweet Boy has done a wonderful job at times truly taking me to the place I want to be. I wish he would now.

I have had a bad night. It took I I had to walk away from a fight with the parent and I had to take one of the quick acting anxiety meds. I have felt so bad and just wanted to not exist. Maybe that is one of the things I want, someone to keep me from ever giving in to the bad thoughts. I wish he would email me a message and trigger his Pet to do something just for him. I wish he could take me as his personal pet to live with him forever.
He has someone special and I have dreamed of being there for both of them. I care about him alot. What I guess would be hard for many to understand is I love him and want them to be together and live a happy life. Yes, I have a selfish fantasy that I could be their live-in pet-slave. I would be there for them as a sexual release and as they need me to look after the family. I want him to have what I feel I will never have.

Sorry, I wanted to write something that you could think of all the sexy ways you might use me. I hoped maybe even you would comment or email me with you fantasy of controlling me. I guess I am just too into the bad thoughts right now.

Your Slave,
Alexia