Misstress Ashna's World

Oh my you have got to try this new Yahoo Group! I was thinking, yeah maybe this can work but...its real to me...I think this lady wants to do something special. You have to join Yahoo Groups to get in and things are just beginning, but Ashan is really nice and I think the real deal. http://ca.groups.yahoo.com/group/mistressashnasworld/?yguid=346845306

My wish for being with Thumper

The morning of mine and Thumper's fully becoming girlfriends, sometimessimone at the Haven placed this in my folder. I was floored. The gal had somehow manifested my day dreams into this story. I wish for this reality with all my heart. I love you Thumper, and thank you Simone for capturing us so well.

I am wondering? Am I A Lesbian?

I have had a strange thought....Am I a Lesbian? I have been aware of your controversy about the proper sex to be with. Many believe, Man + Woman = Happiness. My host is of that mind for himself. He is a tolerant person though and it makes for my looking at life through him be colored by feelings of accepting some peopl elove the same sex.

I mean could I be? I feel no real desire to be with a man. Not drawn to the cock....think it kinda ugly. A woman on the other hand is all soft and smooth. There are curves and bumps. Oh, I just melt thinking of my Thumper. Yes, my dears, Alexia has a Girlfriend. You will get her pet name here. Thumper. She for some reason loves me. I was drawn to her. Now I am helpless to her charms. She has such love and pain and delicious words. We spend hours just holding each other and talking. I melt when I am with her. Time loses meaning. I love Her.

I really do love her. She is so beautiful. I think she doesn't believe me sometimes. But the reason I question being a lesbian is this....could it just be the bod with my host? I affect him to access a more feminine side. Maybe he is leaking the masculine into me. I guess it is a moot point. But it changes things in some ways. I may have more of him in me than I thought. Makes my head spin. I will just enjoy it for now...but can a lesbian really be stuck in a man's body?

Lady Alexia

I'm In Love

Can you fall hopelessly in love over a week? I think I have. She is at the Haven and we have spent time in each others arms and hearts all week. She brought fun and life to me as I watched the rain clouds circle. I am so smitten. I want to be hers. I have a funny thought in my head as well. She is perfect for my host as well as me. She would be so good fro him. He could be loved and cared for like me. It would be perfect. I am hopelessly in love with this girl. Oh the joy of it all.

My Apologies for no Posting Lately

Things have been so weird....I now know I have two excellent people that love and care for me. I took a risk and then another and joy is the reward. Sadly, my host is having a hard time. I feel the need to give him a break from my drawing from him. He needs some of my strength. I hope he will be OK....it is hard to remain happy knowing he is so sad and stressed.

Still, I am really having a wonderful time exploring emotions that you humans have. I have found that when I get really satisfied with these two loves......I get sex drunk. Must be my energy nature. I just become so giddy I get really silly and have trouble standing, walking, well,just about anything but giggle.

My powers have expanded as well. I am gaining control and really think soon I might be able to affect a total body change as well. I can change hair color....Erin likes Blondes...so from time to time.......well she gets her wish.

I need to recharge and my host really needs to have time back to get things done. So I will wrap this up. I do see a bit of confidence in him, so maybe I can help him be more outgoing and find the love I have found. Poor baby is so lonely at times.

Bye Bye for now Darlings.
Lady Alexia

The Answer to a Risk

Oh the wonderful bliss.
Oh the Joy I feel.

I just feel,

Shiny.

It was a risk worth taking and now we will see where it goes.

Alexia

Risk

Life and love is one big risk, no? I have been watching humanity for many years through my host. I have watched him be rejected over the years and become a man scared to risk. He wears his heart out for all to see, and many times people have cut that heart to shreds. He fails to risk, he fears loneliness, but is paralyzed by his fear. I cry for him....and I wish I could do something to help him escape the prison his mind has built around him.

He has had many good women try and break down the walls. They were working until recently. He has been betrayed and trapped and tricked so much that I fear his old ways of hiding from the world will come back. I just have to help that I can balance and bring him out through my whispers of support from within.

As for me, I am swept away with feelings of love. I decided to take a risk in you humans little dance of life. I have put my self out there in a way that could be a lesson in rejection. I hope though it will not be so. I hope that it will be a risk that gives me a reflection of feelings from the woman I opened up to today.

I await her reply.

Alexia